I had a conversation last night with a fellow blogger. She asked me the question “why am I blogging every day again?” While I could think of several reasons to encourage her to continue blogging, NONE of those reasons seem to be good enough on the days when I just don’t FEEL like doing it.
We spoke for quite some time about the pressure that we place on ourselves, based on others’ expectations of us. I know that if I haven’t posted prayers on twitter before 9 am, I feel as if I’m letting someone down. On the days that I don’t post here, I feel like a failure.
But, the truth IS, that if I don’t post prayers daily and if I don’t post to my blog daily, I haven’t failed. I’m working. I’m working on a lot of things. And when your life is spread so thin as mine has become, it’s easy to lose sight of progress.
So today, I decided to do something that one of my favorite former bosses did. When I started working for him, I needed to organize ALL of his files. I found a folder that REALLY struck me. I can’t even remember the name of the folder. I think it was “accolades”. More importantly, I knew what was in it.
He had a folder of random notes, cards, etc. of people telling him what a great job he was doing. Some were longer than others, but, the point was, he had a file of them. He is a VERY successful person and in fact, encouraged me much more than he knows in my writing career.
That folder stuck with me. And although I never started an actual paper folder (the anti-clutter thing), I have kept MENTAL notes in my head. Then today, something happened.
First, I saw this:
Yup…. I’m working on a gig with people I haven’t even MET and the event FOUNDER said he’s PROUD to have me?
Then, this happened:
Apparently, someone nominated me by sending an email to Hope Magazine!
And I thought about my conversation last night. I’m not a failure when I don’t blog! I’m working with people who are PROUD to have me on their team! Someone thinks I should be counted among “Women Who Rock”. Oh yeah, and there is that blackweblog awards finalist nomination…
So, when I’m out of town, working PROUDLY with the people who are PROUD of me, I won’t feel condemned because I have to miss a few days of blogging! I’m gone from Thursday to Tuesday and if I don’t blog or tweet, I’m going to remember my Kudos. I deserve them 🙂
Besides, there’s plenty of stuff in the archives for you folks to mill through…